been on my soul journey to acquire my centaur legs, the gympill is my only solace in this world

girl the lizard brain is telling me he’s a hottie, I don’t gotta think about anything

if you think about it???

It’s like getting good at music, drawing, or a video game where your misery is related to your present skill and your ability to see your own flaws. You notice flaws, learn how to correct them, feel great until you identify other lacking skills, and then feel awful while you learn how to resolve them. And eventually you pass.

well you know my parents didn’t catch it either, and in their defense (hate saying that), inspecting your child’s genitals post-puberty is a bit odd.

Also, I’m in the same boat as you with the cryptorchidism but I’m reserving my intersex judgements until I’m able to get a karyotyping done. Reason why is the cryptorchism isn’t the intersex, it’s just an indicator of de la chapelle syndrome which is the intersex.

Not accusing you of lacking medical diagnosis, just recounting my interior mechanism.

Would seeing a urologist be a proper diagnosis? I’ll be honest I’m too afraid to talk to doctors so I spend much of my thought towards cultivating my body in ways that don’t require their consultation.

Also not to say noticing the cryptorchism hasn’t massively influenced how I conceive of myself in my head. the second paragraph here is more or less just the little prayer I say to tamp down on being too hasty with sharing the hypothesis with others, even though the thought itself is basically true in my head.

I’m so happy for you cultivating your own soul, but… nay, I shant suggest it

If you could articulate why it feels like ragebait in a journal-y fashion than I would be very interested to read that. twinkles eyes at you pweeeaaase

I’ve committed to never speak of any neurodivergences I suffer from amongst my peers. It feels similar to spirituality / exercise / trauma / D&D characters because it’s highly personalized and difficult to parse unless you directly relate to it. So this can be a disgruntling conversation topic since the easiest form of back-and-forth is each participant recounting their own %thing%, and if it doesn’t align with the original speaker’s experience it can feel as though they’re drawing attention away, which can be diminishing and hurtful.

And that is BAD NEWS, nuh uh, none for me, thank you!

I hate psycho parents. So much of culture is just affirming that they have divine mandate over their children’s minds and bodies. My mother kept my computer in her room to make sure I was never masturbating, and I found out my step mom watched me from a baby monitor when she wasn’t home and read my diary. Both father figures could be characterized by a condescending disinterest. Hate these fucking breeders.

only about 35% of the time this year ^^ how are you doing, gorgeous?

I can confirm, I’ve been keeping measurements from a distance

oh yum, I’m woefully not up on my astrology, ty

the character is kind of like the archetypal sinful or evil woman [electric light orchestra riff plays]. I think its adoption as a name aligns to a resentment of your god or society while still falling into its roles of womanhood.

Alternately, and this is likely not the case for most Liliths, the name is also important to the history of a cult/religion called Thelema. Aleister Crowley, the founder of that cult/religion,'s daughter was named Lilith.

Her full name was Nuit Ma Ahathoor Hecate Sappho Jezebel Lilith Crowley, and when she died of typhoid at 2yo it was joked that she died of asphyxiation trying to say her own name. The Thelemic premise of a “guardian angel” has helped me out quite a lot in my own transition, and I might have gone with the name Lilith if I was interested in Thelema earlier in my transition, and If I wasn’t aware of it as a clocky name.

try meditating, it’s helped me a lot

holy cow this artist’s work is amazing

image is what getting too high feels like

I don’t read much about gender or feminism, but I’ve bookmarked this post for enrichment’s sake, thank you ^^

I think it’s because the forum is a bit of a scratching post for us catTranssexuals. I do my best like drink water and chase my toy mouse, or whatever, but sometimes I do get a bit bitchy and I take it out on other cool cats. I think the kitties who seek out scratching posts the most are either traumatized or felines who are addicted to the positive self image from scratching other cats, and these two groups are in a bit of a venn diagram.

awwwww, it’s a love story <3<3<3

but the kitty does help, no lie