I kinda feel like my options are…

A) Transitioning (and rope one day if I don’t pass)

B) Repressing completely + conversion therapy

C) Repressing + accepting myself as a cis-bisexual

Because I feel completely hopeless and deeply dysphoric and like Transitioning might not be even worth it because of a fuckton of horrific reasons:

  • I’m a midshit / lateshit (20y old)
  • I’m a mentally ill unlovable borderline schizo
  • I’m am incel 4tran brainwormed subhuman
  • I was violently hypermasculinly socialized
  • Sexuality is utterly fucked and dysfunctional
  • I’m middle eastern (racehon, ugly arab ape)
  • Family is extremely queerphobic (will hate me)
  • My future is fucked (studying useless degree)
  • I am a total voicehon, rapehon, orgehon tranny
  • My body is hideous and masculine (see below)

Body measurements:

  • Height 173cm (absolute heighthon)
  • Weight 58kg (look like a skelton)
  • Shoe size 42 (european men’s)
  • Bideltoid / Shoulder width 44cm
  • Shoulder circumference 96cm
  • Ribcage circumference 78cm
  • Hip width (widest point) 83cm
  • Waist circumference 71cm
  • My Waist to Hip-Ratio 0.86

And I have so little hope that I could pass or be happy and don’t know if transition is even worth it. And no, none of this is meant in an ironic way. I hate myself and would like to rip my body apart.

I won’t do anything to myself but I have no hope.

  • mljemy
    8·
    25 days ago

    Height 173cm (absolute heighthon)

    fuck off with that come on

    • mljemy
      4·
      25 days ago

      your body measurements are perfectly fine for pre hrt

    • DysphoriaGirlOP
      1·
      25 days ago

      Every woman in my family, heck almost all women I know, is smaller than me.

  • sisterwaif
    5·
    25 days ago

    transitioning and not passing is better than repping tbh

    • DysphoriaGirlOP
      11·
      25 days ago

      Really? Discrimination, being undatebale, unlovable, ugly, unemployable, a freak, a target of political violence, hated by family, and revolting to cis people is better than repping?

      Be for real right now. Maybe I’m not dysphoric enough and just a disgusting agp faketrans but losing everthing due to transition doesn’t sound better than just suffering or forcing myself into believing I am merely a delusional perverted agp borderline retarded cissoid.

      • sisterwaif
        1·
        25 days ago

        Extremely funny to me youre already mourning things you havent lost tbh

        I date, have a job, am attractive for my age, get along better with cis people than other trannies and lost my pre transition friends, but transition was very worth it. Skill issue I guess. Stay repping and john 50 ;)

        • DysphoriaGirlOP
          1·
          25 days ago

          I’m trying to anticipate the future and figure out if the risk of transition is worth it. To be completely honest, I am just terribly dysphroic and feel hopeless and honestly all I really want is some hope and the feeling like I am gonna make it.

          But I just feel like I won’t.

    • DysphoriaGirlOP
      1·
      25 days ago

      I have no idea if I measured stuff correctly, assume everything is bigger than what I said. Honestly probably ignore bideltoid. I botched that. Everything should be correct though.

    • mljemy
      1·
      25 days ago

      it checks out imo, probably just very skinny

  • DysphoriaGirlOP
    1·
    25 days ago

    Even if I transition, I won’t pass cause of my face and also my family and especially would probably kill me because he’d rather have a dead child then a tranny sunhuman faggot freak fake pretend daughter son. Also I am incapable of loving people.

  • inthelightoferis
    1·
    25 days ago

    never rep, itll just hurt more when you transition later

    also what do you mean ogrehon, ur measurements are literally fine for pre hrt

    • DysphoriaGirlOP
      1·
      25 days ago

      My face is a literal triangle with a super sharp jaw, huge browride, sunken eyes, thick deep dark worms in my face (lots or facial hair) and a huge aquilain nose, which literally makes up half of my face. My nose is literally my biggest feature. It’s so fucking ugly. I have such a ratface. I look like a subhuman rat humanoidd mutant.

  • Aryrha
    1·
    25 days ago

    mogs me in every way and i’m a yr in yayayayay

    • DysphoriaGirlOP
      1·
      25 days ago

      I’m not white. Arab sexual dimorphism is so horrific. And also even our women look like men. I’m such a racehon, brown hairy dirty skin ape.

      If you’re white you’re lucky. Heck, when I even try to look up pictures of arab trans women to compare to, I can’t find anything at all!

      People like me don’t exist seemingly.