what a miserable existence

  • Magpie
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    3 days ago

    real… i’m probably just a biogirl who has PMDD, lwky

    • bp16OP
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      3 days ago

      you’re probably bipolar ngl sorry

      • Magpie
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        3 days ago

        hmmmm, i’m not actually so sure that i am… lowkey, i legit might not be; like, i think my mood just got fucked the last couple of weeks because i tried to cycle prog (which i’m not ever going to attempt again…) 😭

        • bp16OP
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          3 days ago

          girl people have been saying this for like a year atp ik being in denial is useful but like cmon

          • Magpie
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            3 days ago

            yeau… but… well… it’s starting to get really hard to deny 💔 my psychologist doesn’t seem to think i’m even particularly mentally ill, though…

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              3 days ago

              it’s not that hard to hide mental illness if you are able to turn up to therapy sessions acting relatively normal and just lie abnout stuff…

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                3 days ago

                i’m not even trying to hide anything, though 😭 at the appointment, i literally just completely tuned out for most of it because i was just thinking about how i was going to kill myself when i got home… lmaooooo

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                  3 days ago

                  ok but like u gotta talk about your thought processes and stuff omg they can’t read your mind

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                    i never get the chance to do so, though; they just keep yapping and yapping without asking me any questions, and i usually just kinda nod along whenever i’m depressed… but i’ve lowkey started journaling, and, before the next appointment, i’m planning on writing down the things i should him 🙏 like, i legit kinda gotta make sure i stop the depressive episodes from happening before i actually just end up killing myself…