I hate the uncertainty. I hate that there’s a chance I’m transitioning because of some disgusting fetish or sexual desire. I hate that no matter how well I embody femininity, my brain might be irrevocably tainted by maleness. If I did some brain scan and it said I had a male brain I would probably kms :(
Sorry it makes me doom so much it just hurts to think about.
In my case, I already accepted that this was the reason I transitioned and I’m already tainted.
I would rather kms than accept that