Sort of gravitated towards Reddit again. Now I got banned once more. This time for giving advice to a poster to shit in her cister’s morning porridge. Can’t take a bloody joke, that automod. Flagged as a bio-terrorist or something now. :D
Has this devolved into a meaningless circlejerk or what?
Yeah, it’s understandable tbh. The discrepancy, the incongruence, the otherness. All heavy burdens to bear by their own right and then you’re also hated by everyone and boom, that’s nice. I wish I could help people but I can’t. I’m too broken myself.
I don’t think you should have to bear that responsibility of helping others, you’re hurting too. You should get to just have whatever healing comes from being with being in a place where you don’t have to hide the feelings that get viewed in so many trans communities as an ugliness that needs to be hidden, you should get to be seen and recognized as all of yourself. Honestly just doing that can do some good, even if it isn’t the direct intention.
Like I have irl tranny friends and such. An active social life, socially mostly transitioned despite being a gigahon and soon I’ll get my legal name and gender marker fixed too. But still there’s this fucking black void inside me that none of my friends understand. They’re just happy living as themselves now and I mask my misery to not get dumped out of the friend group. So /tttt/ spaces are a pretty natural outlet for me too. Thanks for being kind.
Yeah it’s so hard dealing with people out there, like it won’t even feel like I’m actually showing much of what’s inside, but the looks I get back make me feel so alien. It’s nice that there’s somewhere that it isn’t out of place. And absolutely glad to share the kindness, this has been a very nice chat, even if the topic is not so nice!