and it’s because im an actual hulking brick barnhouse and I’m deeply deeply jealous of the average trans woman and how they will likely make it and I just wont in a million years, I wish I could be murdered in a hate crime. I’m sorry for making this post. I don’t know what to do I’m actually going insane with dysphoria. I wish I killed myself decades ago. I can’t go on any other spaces and talk about this, I feel like im hiding a deep dark secret that is slowly killing me, I don’t feel safe around other trans people and never have, I only feel coldness. it’s not their fault, it’s mine and the decisions I made that lead me here.

  • Coalweb41English
    1·
    10 days ago

    i’m Sorry, Bossmaams🫂🫂 I ,understand .It, Nd .Get It, .Its Not, Fair , Obligatory , i Hope .Things ,Improve .Coz, I Do ,Wish i .Had More, 2Say

    • fentprincessOP
      2·
      10 days ago

      im 19.5, possibly 20 inch bideltoid. i’ve been mutilated past recovery, the good times have been gone and will stay gone.

      • Coalweb41English
        1·
        10 days ago

        imma ,B Real .i’m, a Bit .of a Dumbass , ,Nd .Never ,Learned , .What Measurements ,Mean , ,

        • fentprincessOP
          3·
          10 days ago

          its cruel and not worth checking out. I can already tell by the mirror that even surgery wont save me. I cant even cry anymore i just feel empty

          • Coalweb41English
            1·
            10 days ago

            i ,Feel .Like, its .Over, Hella, 2 .From Just, the .Mirror, i’m .Sorry, .its Rlly, not .Fair ,nd .I Really ,do Hope .U’ll, get 2Be .Happy, Someday 🫂🫂 Everything ,is Disgustingly .Evil, 2Trannys .i’m, Sorry