Do I even move out before the vacation? am I acting too rashly? should I have done it way earlier? what will happen with my family and how will they react to my siblings if I suddenly dissapear? I cant decide for shit, I just dont trust myself with anything.


Consequences; my entire bloodline knows something is a miss, my family will become the newest hot topic in the gossiping circles, ‘‘their son just left? for what? didn the say he would come to turkey too? and his dad cannot explain what is happening? what could be going on?’’
and my parents would just get crazy my mom would probably get an heart attack (not joking) and idk what would happen to my siblings… im so worried for them… fuck.
beside the heart attack its worth it
Oh my god what the fuck am i supposed to if my mom literally gets into a hopsital
uhm… idk how serious her condition is… would it really happen?
she gets like very worried and hyperventillating almost and cry when i dont call her if i go outside for 2 hours
oh… but she really has to learn let u go