Do I even move out before the vacation? am I acting too rashly? should I have done it way earlier? what will happen with my family and how will they react to my siblings if I suddenly dissapear? I cant decide for shit, I just dont trust myself with anything.
go! go go go! if you can move out and leave, its time to leave. your family will figure it out, trust. if they get upset just give them time to cool off. you can always call them later yknow? worry about furniture and your stuff.
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im serious do ittt dont give yourself time to psych yourself out more, abby
entire family explodes when my family suddenly doesnt want to visit my family in turkey because i decided to despawn that day
im just scared ill fuck something up, my family will go on a witch hunt for me. idk idk idk. im gonna lose my mind
you need this as a first step, and assume the consequences (hard part but necessary)
Consequences; my entire bloodline knows something is a miss, my family will become the newest hot topic in the gossiping circles, ‘‘their son just left? for what? didn the say he would come to turkey too? and his dad cannot explain what is happening? what could be going on?’’
and my parents would just get crazy my mom would probably get an heart attack (not joking) and idk what would happen to my siblings… im so worried for them… fuck.
beside the heart attack its worth it
Oh my god what the fuck am i supposed to if my mom literally gets into a hopsital
uhm… idk how serious her condition is… would it really happen?
she gets like very worried and hyperventillating almost and cry when i dont call her if i go outside for 2 hours
oh… but she really has to learn let u go
just develop a flexible plan and see what you can do, sometimes rash and bold decisions have to be done and it might suck in the short-term but sometimes it benefits you a lot in the long-term
or i should die
death should be a last resort, there is more to you than what you are now and you will see that if you live
