i’ve been thinking, maybe my dysphoria is so bad, because i’m so self centered. i spend all my free time lurking the board and here (+reddit sub) to entertain my thoughts on my transition, and i even talk to others profusely about dysphoria. like, it’s my only hobby or something; that people can tell it’s what holds me together. i must come across as the most narcissistic prick if i interact with others while keeping this troon mind active all the time. do you think being totally preoccupied with yourself makes you super mentally ill?

  • orangeOP
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    29 days ago

    okay, to add on this, i used to hookup on grindr, and those men must have thought i was the strangest person ever. this weird guy, pretends to be a woman, and then asks for reassurance that he’s viewed as one. WTF. what a freak. you appear like a male rocker using a mickey mouse voice, why the fuck are you talking about your appearance? shut up?

    • orangeOP
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      29 days ago

      same when bringing up politics frequently, and talking about my rights. in those moments, they must see someone arguing about voting progressively as adopting that as their whole personality. i don’t think they’re wrong either. i think maybe the internet did fuck me up a whole lot

    • mljemy
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      29 days ago

      literally the most average insecure trans woman behaviour 👍

      …dont hook up with men on grindr tho

      • orangeOP
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        29 days ago

        i know better now, and i also know it’s a very basic insecurity. i’m saying though, that it has absorbed my life way too much. it’s not healthy at all to only think about this stuff

        • mljemy
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          29 days ago

          yeah its not, but its not your fault or some failure of character.

          just do your best to improve your life and youll think about it way less in the future