Today is my injection day. I feel that I’m just not ready enough to be a tranny. Idk, recently I’ve also been feeling really anxious. Can this be from low/high estrogen levels? Or am I just scared of the social consequences. I don’t think I’ve experienced reverse dysphoria in any way. More so the societal consequences have been getting into me. What if I grow breasts and my family notices? What if the people around me do? Is boymoding really possible? I’m having doubts that I’ll be able to go unnoticed for a year. My family, the way they speak about me, even though I look like a faggot they still sincerely believe that I’m completely a guy. I don’t want to do this to myself. I don’t want to lose my social privileges. I don’t want to lose my ability to experience malebrained games and culture just to avoid being malebrained. I don’t even have any female friends. Only two guys. What the hell do I even know about femininity? How do I even know what it actually means to be a woman? How am I even going to make a career? How am I going to get a good job and a stable future? Will I really be able to become a surgeon as a tranny?