Genuinely so retarded, it’s hard to forgive my past self for being so ignorant when I was just straight-up a coward and a moron. I could’ve been a youngshit if I wasn’t such a dumb fuck.
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I think I realized around 15-16 but immediately got hit with a thought “are you stupid imagine how hard your life will be if you are trans” and proceeded to rep for 3 more years.
The thought of how difficult life would be for me if I was a trans woman also kinda helped keep me repressed for a while. Like “jeez trans women seem like they really have it hard… it’s not that bad forcing myself to fit in to the role of a boy, I can keep doing this. I don’t need to be a woman.” I was wrong.
I knew what transition way but I didn’t want to associate with trans people when I was 12 because I was brainwashed by my parents and was fearmongered into believing they were bad. I found what HRT was and gave up hope on it when I found out I needed parental consent so I just said to myself that I can’t have everything in my life. Thought being a woman was better and thought I had the feelings of one. I’m such a retard
I found out at 13, tried to rep a bit longer because my experiences seemed different than the older trans representation I saw, but continued to be obsessed with it. But I figured there was nothing I could do until I was 18 anyways.
I didn’t discover diy HRT until I was basically 16 and even that had a ton of fear mongering around it. I basically never had a chance after finding out, I was like mid puberty already x.x
Same but I might’ve been a midshit. I probably could’ve discovered it earlier but my exposure to trans people when I was a kid were tumblr hefabs so that probably made me assume I wasn’t trans because I didn’t want to become like them.
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