I don’t caare I will so admit it. I’ve been bouncing around it bc It was so embarrasing but whatever, internet anonymity smth smth. I’ve been realizing that I transitioned for incel reasons. My reasons are basically similar to transmaxxing. I only made the decision bc I thought it would be easier to find love as a woman as a man and there are reasons for this. Number one, if you saw my most previous post it shows that I would actually detrans or at least entertain the idea of detransing for someone else. I don’t think I even need to explain this one.

But also when I imagine the future I imagine my future relationships as a boy, not a woman. I always fantasize abt being in these unrealistic yaoi ass relationships. Me being trans doesn’t factor in these in the slightest. I don’t see myself as a woman but a boy who hopes to masquerade as woman for romantic purposes, literally incel reasons. I am just a man and nothing more. This also explains why I comfortably refer to myself as he / a man on here bc the thought of being a man doesn’t actually disturb me.

Now, will I detroon over this? Probably not and I hate myself for it. I wish I could just man up and stop this whole masquerade and I think it’s why I have a repulsion to calling myself trans in the first place. I don’t really have anything in common with real trans women besides the fact I take estrogen.

Also I’m dropping my graph on pseudo dysphoria #soon