It doesn’t help anybody…
I am for example depressed, have trauma and lead an unhappy life with no purpose and that is filled with feelings of deep inadequacy.
And I ask myself… could it be that I want to be trans just because the idea of being a woman due to trauma has become something that feels safer to me (even if I’m man) than the idea of being with a woman and my wish to transition is just so I can fulfill some deep seated need… essentially instead of feeling adequate and confident enough to express my attraction to a woman and love a woman in a relationship, I instead try to love myself as a woman because I’m scared of failing or being inadequate as a heterosexual man
That plus my father’s abuse due to his extreme hypermasculine expectations and my sexual trauma from pornography have made me afraid and alienated from the idea of being a man and from heterosexuality.
And then I developed dysphoria after the fact… I literally said “okay I want to be a woman because I think then I can fulfill this deep seated need, but trans women need to have dysphoria so now I should start to feel dysphoria” and then and only then after starting to imitate what people said they were dysphoric about, did I start feeling it which to me seems like I induced dysphoria artificially.
Why… why isn’t that a viable explanation!
I completely agree with you about the cult mentality. But idk I wasn’t able to find a cure to dysphoria so I’m trooning out even if I don’t really want to and it is scary. At least this place can be a bit critical, meanwhile r/mtf is going to tell anyone that there’re an “egg”. Genuinely I’m waiting for the day when we can fix brain structures and save people like us from suffering. There’s also w clear difference between ROGD individuals and actually dysphoric people from childhood. Why isn’t there a cure to ROGD? Like literally I feel like a part of my brain is foid, yet another has moid elements, and that foid part got activated after I realized some stuff. I was mentally broken before ever having dysphoria, depressed, anxious. Maybe my brain really did gaslit itself. But it is irreversible sadly. So in order to decrease the pain and damage, I see hrt as the only option.
I agree… it seems to me that I also clearly suffer from ROGD and not genuine early-onset gender dysphoria because I literally induced the gender dysphoria into myself on purpose to feel more validated in the idea that I might be trans (which was a cope)…
But for me the brain thing is different… it is like I have a moid brain with foid elements and that after these got activated, I became really depresed again. So deactivating them or whatever… idk what the solution is… but like something has to somehow help me…