like, ik most of us are suicidal and all that. but assuming the tranny stuff was fixed. what would keep you here then? why would you want to live

because if my dysphoria was fixed id still want to kms probably. i just dont want my life. theres nothing i want to do. sure it would make the pain slightly less, make it easier for inertia to carry me forward, but there still would be nothing.

i just want to sleep. thats all. close my eyes and never have to open them again.

    • AlexOP
      4·
      3 months ago

      i mean, i want to kms before all this too. its been the one single constant of my life. being trans is hardly my biggest issue.

      i have friends, im about to graduate uni, i have a family who loves and cares about me. ive worked jobs. ive traveled. ive gone to therapy, tried lots of medications.

      none of it has given me any desire to keep going for myself. theres nothing i want for me. i live for my mom, but she will die one day and then what? im not going to make another person my will to live like that again. its selfish, and idk if anyone could ever be what she is to me anyway.

  • Kath
    4·
    3 months ago

    i wouldn’t know tbh…

    i just want to sleep. thats all. close my eyes and never have to open them again.

    real… it is so tiring…

    • AlexOP
      2·
      3 months ago

      idk, a relationship isnt enough for me. not really

        • AlexOP
          3·
          3 months ago

          i dont remember my life before i was 10, and from 10 until now i have always wanted to kms

          • frankensteinshonster
            2·
            3 months ago

            same pretty much. i don’t know if a bf would even fix me maybe it’s a cope. i really hope it gets better for you sweetheart

  • PIČKOVAR 🏴‍☠️
    3·
    3 months ago

    My life is fine. My family is good, and I have friends and opportunities in life. I just choose to throw it all away. There is nothing holding me back from living a fulfilling life except this tranny gene I was born with. Whether I rep or poon out, there will still be that pain, I’ll never experience this life normally.

  • Lengthofdry1943
    3·
    3 months ago

    ┐(´ー｀)┌ pretty much helping people ig everything else is a plus

  • Dinasacc
    3·
    3 months ago

    This is corny but I really like rapping and at this point it’s the only thing keeping me going. It’s a hobby.

  • 999
    3·
    3 months ago

    sometimes a song really touches me and it makes me want to live so i can make music and enjoy music with other people

    sometimes my gf says something really sweet to me and i feel hopeful and optimistic

    sometimes i get a glimpse of a future where i can learn and grow and assimilate into society and become a real person with a real life and real friends

    i want to make it because i want to bask in those fleeting moments of joy and i want to help the people i love to do that too

  • 4tBocchi
    2·
    3 months ago

    I just wanna build and make things. I was always creative at heart, tranny issues just got in the way is all 😔

  • angrytransgal
    2·
    3 months ago

    If I could get adhd meda again I’d probably be living a normal, albeit neet life. I’d probably stream/yt and make a ton of money. I have the talent it’s just the lack of energy and overwhelming executive dysfunction keeping me down.

    But assuming I had none of this hypothetical then the answer is nicotine, psychedelics, and collecting retro tech.