like, ik most of us are suicidal and all that. but assuming the tranny stuff was fixed. what would keep you here then? why would you want to live
because if my dysphoria was fixed id still want to kms probably. i just dont want my life. theres nothing i want to do. sure it would make the pain slightly less, make it easier for inertia to carry me forward, but there still would be nothing.
i just want to sleep. thats all. close my eyes and never have to open them again.
sometimes a song really touches me and it makes me want to live so i can make music and enjoy music with other people
sometimes my gf says something really sweet to me and i feel hopeful and optimistic
sometimes i get a glimpse of a future where i can learn and grow and assimilate into society and become a real person with a real life and real friends
i want to make it because i want to bask in those fleeting moments of joy and i want to help the people i love to do that too