You all do actually hate me… I am becoming your fucking lolcow apparently… why… why do I mean so little to literally everybody… even people who supposedly undestand me… I am sorry if I am just a monster… I am sorry if I am not the right type of mentall ill… the one with scares and tears and suicide attempts or whatever… the one who actually is still nice underneath the noise… I am sorry if instead there is just fucking hatred at my core… why… why dont I deserve some kindess as well… I am sorry that I always demand to much… that I am impossible to reassure… I am sorry that I am just a narcisstic piece of shit…
I never wanted to be… why are you making fun of me… I didnt deserve this… I am just in fucking pain… and yeah I dont do anything… but it’s not like I even feel like I can… like that is even a thing my mind understands or knows how to do… so I am sorry for that… but why be cruel to me… I am sorry that I am literally so worthless… everybody alwasy leaves me…
I am just talking about my thoughts… its is not like this place hasnt contributed to exactly that fucked up mindset of mine… I got worse while being here… dont just blame me… I also am just voicing my thoughts… didnt know that wasnt allowed… and primarily everything I say refers to me… I just generalize a lot when I speak!
I found it… and I am sorry… I removed that comment… I clearly overstepped and was just behaving in a reckless furry of self hatred… this was too far… that was very wrong… I am sorry… I just felt personally shitty because I had to think about women I knew and felt such despair and dysphoria and envy and just felt disgusted with myself because I felt ashamed for wanting to be like them and felt creepy and wrong and just… I projected it very clearly outwards…
You all do actually hate me… I am becoming your fucking lolcow apparently… why… why do I mean so little to literally everybody… even people who supposedly undestand me… I am sorry if I am just a monster… I am sorry if I am not the right type of mentall ill… the one with scares and tears and suicide attempts or whatever… the one who actually is still nice underneath the noise… I am sorry if instead there is just fucking hatred at my core… why… why dont I deserve some kindess as well… I am sorry that I always demand to much… that I am impossible to reassure… I am sorry that I am just a narcisstic piece of shit…
I never wanted to be… why are you making fun of me… I didnt deserve this… I am just in fucking pain… and yeah I dont do anything… but it’s not like I even feel like I can… like that is even a thing my mind understands or knows how to do… so I am sorry for that… but why be cruel to me… I am sorry that I am literally so worthless… everybody alwasy leaves me…
It would be nice if you didn’t do daily posts of bigotry and project your transphobia on everyone.
I am just talking about my thoughts… its is not like this place hasnt contributed to exactly that fucked up mindset of mine… I got worse while being here… dont just blame me… I also am just voicing my thoughts… didnt know that wasnt allowed… and primarily everything I say refers to me… I just generalize a lot when I speak!
you came into a conversation i was having and directly said it to me
I have to go and look that up… what???
I found it… and I am sorry… I removed that comment… I clearly overstepped and was just behaving in a reckless furry of self hatred… this was too far… that was very wrong… I am sorry… I just felt personally shitty because I had to think about women I knew and felt such despair and dysphoria and envy and just felt disgusted with myself because I felt ashamed for wanting to be like them and felt creepy and wrong and just… I projected it very clearly outwards…