Like I mean seriously… I fucking hate myself that I didn’t know early and will never accept myself as trans or transition because of that. I used to be an extremely religiously zealous and anti-lgbtq chud and nobody here seems to have had the same experience cause you all seemingly were already gay little faggots or troons at 16y old and simply were to dumb or didn’t know about DIY back then. But me?

No, I was straight. I was cis. Then it all broke apart. Isn’t there anybody who has a similar experience and knows how that feels and has the same doubts due to not knowing they were trans at an early age and that used to be like extremely transphobic!

I can’t be the only one… I’m so lonely and hurt

  • RtHonAlice
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    17 days ago

    Yeah, at age 16 the year was 2008, our country bumpkin internet was slow as shit (ISDN, chances are most people here have to google what that even is), troon info was virtually inaccessible, the only chance was parents picking up on the signs and sending their kid to a psychiatrist, unfortunately mine didn’t. I have no idea if DIY for sale even existed back then and even if it did there was no crypto or anything to pay for it.

    Now people have everything at their disposal, access to diy and literature, but what do they do? They rep like complete fucking morons. It drives me crazy. They have it all and still throw it away.

    • RepressorBoyOP
      2·
      17 days ago

      Sorry… sometimes I forget how old some people here actually are and think you’re all at most like 23y old or something…

    • RepressorBoyOP
      2·
      17 days ago

      Imagine your parents sending you to a mental health professional… my parents never took that option serious

      • RtHonAlice
        2·
        17 days ago

        It took cutting in school, spilling blood in the hallway for an intervention. By that age I was already 18 and broken from PTSD and depression. I never spoke about gd with anyone because I thought nobody would care anyway and due to lack of knowledge about HRT I thought nobody could help me in the first place.

        • RepressorBoyOP
          2·
          17 days ago

          I am sorry that happened… that sounds horrific… I hope that you are doing better nowadays… I thankfully almost always just suffered internally… I also hesistated a lot before ever getting any help whatsoever… I thought I didnt deserve it

          • RtHonAlice
            1·
            17 days ago

            Yeah, definitely better now, no cutting since then. My gf keeps me safe and HRT makes me feel better.

            I had been suffering internally for years too, but someday I just reached my breaking point. You can only bottle up so much.

            I’m glad you’re getting help now. You don’t deserve it any less than anybody else. Your therapist seems competent, I’m glad.