I have every reason to rep, I would be a richshit if I repped. Will I live authentically? No. Will I make my parents and everyone else around me happier? Absolutely. I will never be happy with myself anyways, the only thing that makes me happy is making others happy.
Doesn’t sound too bad given I will never be happy with myself (and never have been)
It will get much worse when your body will be mutilated by twink death and testosterone aging, but you seem to be laser-focused and determined on doing it, so…
I just hate myself tbh
Then stop indulging every obsessive thought about repping? You don’t seem like someone who can actually rep without killing yourself.