I have every reason to rep, I would be a richshit if I repped. Will I live authentically? No. Will I make my parents and everyone else around me happier? Absolutely. I will never be happy with myself anyways, the only thing that makes me happy is making others happy.
I just hate myself tbh
Then stop indulging every obsessive thought about repping? You don’t seem like someone who can actually rep without killing yourself.