Feels like the only way to find accepting people is to brute force it by befriending queer people atp. I’m still kinda scared of someone I know seeing me there as it will be in the most iconic place in my school lmao but it will be fine probs…

Also this might be dumb but do I introduce myself with my deadname or the foid name becuz idk I never uttered the words “I’m trans” or “I’m a woman” out loud before so it’s kinda scary to say something along those lines and by scary I mean I can barely say it even to myself when I’m alone like there is barrier in my throat or something

Anyway I’m sure I’ll get over myself eventually idk I should probs shave my arms and stuff too I’ll full on twinkmode (like wearing a t-shirt with short sleeves) instead of hoodiemoding I think.

  • alteracion
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    17 days ago

    I feel like it would depend on when you think you’re going to come out, the closer you are to doing so the more you might wanna bite the bullet so you can have people who won’t have seen you “before” and know your deadname

    • MaffyOP
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      17 days ago

      I’m not coming out to anyone I already know irl… Like ever…

      • alteracion
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        17 days ago

        I very much understand the sentiment but you come across as bright-eyed and are talking about “twinkmoding”. I don’t know you or your situation but I wouldn’t be surprised if you did and if it turns out to be worth it.

        • MaffyOP
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          17 days ago

          Twinkmoding literally just means wearing a t-shirt instead of something that hides my entire body shape like a hoodie lmao. I just made that word up I didn’t realize people would be confused by what I meant with that.

          Also idk what bright-eyed means…

          • alteracion
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            17 days ago

            I wasn’t confused by it, I’m saying if your starting point is twink or if you’re already there you may have a good chance. bright-eyed is like young and happy, happy in a young way I guess

            • MaffyOP
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              16 days ago

              Oh, I see. Well the reason I don’t want to come out is because I do not know a single person who wouldn’t be disgusted by it. I mean parents would kill me, the only reason I feel the confidence to go there is because I study in an entirely different city from them.

              But I do feel I’m more or less lucky looks-wise, so you’re kinda right in a way.

              • alteracion
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                16 days ago

                fair, I wasn’t suggesting you need to be out to people who would react badly