I‘m so sorry Alex, you don’t deserve to feel this way. I sometimes feel similarly ruined because of my scars. But it doesn’t mean you’re ruined forever, people can still love you, still find you pretty, even if it feels hard to believe that. I know in the end it matters most how you feel about it, you’re the one living in it after all. And i truly hope you can get to a place where you feel okay about it one day, it takes a lot of time to get reach that but I am sure you can get there or closer to it. Maybe doing what you wanted to recently would help a bit? Working out and all that

I know i can’t convince you of this, i know myself that that’s not how this works, but I truly don’t think you look bad or ugly or masculine. I remember the first time i saw pics of you, i think they were from your trip to japan, and when comparing those to what you look like now, i genuinely think you’ve come a long way already. It will get better. I hope you can feel like they are too one day

i feel very similar but with my hair… why i had to develop fucking mpb at fucking 20, starting at 18… i started hrt at 23 which should have been enough to avoid it but i had to have horrible genetics… had even a hair transplant but it wasn’t enough and i need another one… barely tried to have a relationship cause i feel so disgusting and unlovable because of this, and also barely went out of my home in all these years, which should have been the best of my life or smth… sry for venting in your vent post, i don’t think that you are unlovable and you deserve a lot more, pls be kind to yourself :c