Newfren in my friend group said “damn are those nipples real? Are you on estrogen?” and I said “oh, well, you know” and then one of the longer term friends did the flat hand across the neck a couple times, (the universal sign for ‘don’t bring that up’ hand signal) so what like… Do they know apparently? Is everyone pretending not to notice? WTF do I do I look nothing like a girl so I wouldn’t be taken seriously if I came out (they would be polite about it but I wouldn’t be treated like a real female)

WTF is the next step? Should I abandon the fried group and HRT manmode for a few more years? I feel so terrible now I just want to be normal and I want regular girls to see me as an equal not as a powderkeg rapehon that’s ready to blow at any second but every time I hang out with this group they’re treating me like I’m a super aggressive asshole who is one step away from assaulting someone over something typically male such as a videogame or a disagreement about scientific literature