Operation Hel

What I’ll try to do is a gamble, but it’s worth trying. It’s the ultimate prize which is living. I believe that ROGD is curable, at least in my case. My theory is that succeful ROGD detrans are an example of survivorship bias. The fact that they were able to detrans their mind, is because they left this identity all together. There’s no reason for them to go back, so they won’t report that they were able to successfully rep, because such action would mean that they didn’t really detrans their mind.

Here’s my plan: I’ll have to minimize and completely cut off any trans media or representation online. And force myself to stop thinking about it. My brain has to forget. I remember that I had a phase when I kind of forgot about femboyism snd stuff. I believe that the same is possible with ROGD. ROGD has a certain vulnerability which is having memories pre-dysphoria. If I can utilize my life memories from pre-dysphoria and certain identities which I had, I can return the state of my mind. For example, I used to really identify with Okabe Rintaro from steins gate before I had dysphoria. I have to embrace this identity. It is a backdoor into my male self. I don’t have to be overly masculine, it is okay if I just stay a twink. I’ll take hrt but when physical dysphoria is over, I’ll stop.

All of this of course will mean, that this will be my last post (if it goes successfully) I’ll hold a grace period in which you can all say farewell or tell me that this shit won’t work, but it is my only true option. If I fail, then I’ll probably return, idk how long that is going to take tho.

This journey will require me to completely abolish any kind of thought about the troon cognitohazard active inside my mind. I basically have to forget everything. Which means that I won’t even be able to document my journey or how I feel, I have to forget that too.

Operation Hel will require me to delude myself, perform a mind-leap. I’ll have to think that I’m like Okabe Rintaro, just like I used to before ROGD. This is my only backdoor, that series, that identity, it carries so much meaning it makes my heart burn. This feeling is beyond dysphoria. The organization is watching. El Psy Kongroo.

  • RtHonAlice
    8·
    29 days ago

    You and DysphoriaGirl will make a lovely couple one day.

    • FuwareiOP
      1·
      29 days ago

      She’s a more hardcore repper cause she didn’t even order hrt yet. But I keep seeing flaws in her scheme, she doesn’t want to leave this place. But I recognize that you have to abolish every troon anything with exception of hrt.

  • mega_moid
    7·
    29 days ago

    The fact that you wrote out this long and comperhensive post about ts means you will always have this idea at the back of your mind unless you were to literally lobotomize yourself, people in the 1300’s didnt even know what transgenderism is and they still felt GD, YWNBAM

  • noneday4
    7·
    29 days ago

    Abolishing/resisting thoughts doesn’t work, this has been studied.

    • FuwareiOP
      1·
      29 days ago

      ROGD wasn’t taken into consideration. I believe that I’m the 1% that can do it. Sandwich also isn’t documented, but somehow exists? How do you explain that. Netherless, don’t worry I’ll take the hrt when it arrives. I have to have a back up plan if what I’m about to do fails. Maybe I’ll just hrt rep. If I see potential on hrt into not being a hon, and my plan fails then I might troon out. But what I’m trying to do is to minimize dysphoria altogether.

      • Loose_Sandwich9217
        4·
        29 days ago

        Sandwich also isn’t documented, but somehow exists?

        I cannot stress enough that im literally nothing like you whatsoever

      • Cambi
        2·
        29 days ago

        So your plan is to just quit Tranistan and transition?

        • FuwareiOP
          11·
          29 days ago

          No, just quit thinking about trans stuff altogether and maybe my dysphoria will lessen. Hrt is just backup in case I fail. I don’t want to regret being john 50

          • CutePlushies
            1·
            29 days ago

            This was my exact thinking when I tried to pretend I was a moid last year. Dysphoria does not go away. I guess staying on HRT at least means it isn’t dangerous.

  • Cambi
    6·
    29 days ago

    Goodbye, Fuwarei. See you in a month.

  • Cobweb46English
    4·
    29 days ago

    i Don’t , Even .Know What, 2 Say .About this, i Just .Wanna Cry, .

    Stop

  • CutePlushies
    4·
    29 days ago

    It is a backdoor into my male self. I don’t have to be overly masculine, it is okay if I just stay a twink. I’ll take hrt but when physical dysphoria is over, I’ll stop.

    You’re NGMI as a detrans. I’m sorry but this right here is hard evidence.

    • FuwareiOP
      1·
      29 days ago

      No but I’ll stay as okabe rintaro forever. IMGMI. This is literally what they did in steins gate, they had to delude themselves, their past selve. In my case it is going to be my present self

        • FuwareiOP
          1·
          29 days ago

          No, I’d if I trooned out and became a hon. But if I boymode just twinkish then nothing will happen. And I’ll avoid cognitohazards as well. I’ll boymode forever, unless I malefail (I won’t)

          • CutePlushies
            1·
            29 days ago

            So long as you stay on HRT to prevent honnifying, have fun with your litte experiment then girl…

    • FuwareiOP
      1·
      29 days ago

      No but I’m like Okabe Rintaro literally. I can’t be trans. I’ll buy a labcoat too. J just suffer from dysphoria. Thinking like this will make me suffer less

        • FuwareiOP
          22·
          29 days ago

          I read the visual novel. I was like okabe rintaro about science before I even knew of him.

  • Kath
    3·
    29 days ago

    fucking hate you people so much

    • FuwareiOP
      1·
      29 days ago

      If I’m going to die on hrt repping with reduced exposition to cognitohazards(basically my plan), then I’d die being a hon tttt brained

  • Loose_Sandwich9217
    2·
    29 days ago

    My theory is that succeful ROGD detrans are an example of survivorship bias. The fact that they were able to detrans their mind, is because they left this identity all together.

    no idea if this is referring to me but if it is you’re completely fucking retarded and not how that works

    • FuwareiOP
      11·
      29 days ago

      It is not. It is referring to my theory. If you’re getting mad, it just means that it works. I didn’t even think of you.

      • Loose_Sandwich9217
        5·
        29 days ago

        If you’re getting mad, it just means that it works

        ???

        I dont think thats how it works

  • ajin_rouuu
    1·
    29 days ago

    please take the correct dosage okay? dont fuck yourself over by hondosing yourself. and im sorry but this plan wont work. see ya and please be safe 🫂

    • CutePlushies
      2·
      29 days ago

      yea like I thought about it and so long as she keeps herself on good HRT she’ll be fine I guess

      • ajin_rouuu
        1·
        29 days ago

        im not well versed in monotherapy but 4mg is too low. , like T would still do its thing. 5mg to 7mg every week i think. depending on which one supress the T. personally i would tske 6mg if i were you but like i said im not experienced with jt due to being a pillhon by circumstance. So get your levels checked if you can and monitor body carefuly. .

        • FuwareiOP
          1·
          29 days ago

          Why does it say everywhere that you should do 4mg. I’ll try 5 tho

            • FuwareiOP
              1·
              29 days ago

              Then I’ll try 5mg just to be safe, sq injections. Check my levels after month/2 and increase/decrease dosage

              • ajin_rouuu
                1·
                29 days ago

                i think thats ok. but ask other people here too cuz like i said im not personally experienced with it.

    • FuwareiOP
      2·
      29 days ago

      How do you know, this is literally perfect. This is just how Okabe Rintaro was able to reach steins gate. I want my steins gate

      • ajin_rouuu
        1·
        29 days ago

        i dont know how to reply to this until i watched steins gate. I will though, hopefully kinda soon.

        anyway like i said be careful

  • FuwareiOP
    15·
    29 days ago

    I just have to fix myself in steins gate style. The answer was in front of me all this time, from the beginning. I just have to carry the right order of events. El psy kongroo

      • FuwareiOP
        2·
        29 days ago

        It all started because of steins gate (lukako femboy catalyst) and it’ll end with the help of it. I’ll be able to experience steins gate irl because of that, I already kind of did. This is my version of operation skuld

    • CutePlushies
      1·
      29 days ago

      You will not succeed. Women kin male characters all the time.