I’m sorry that you find yourself in that, because it is very painful. And it is not easy to get out of it and into the life that you want, the one where you can be all of yourself. But it’s possible. And you deserve the happiness it brings.
That unknown aspect can be very scary, it’s so difficult to know what you’ll actually find from transitioning. But you’ve had plenty of time in this life where, without intervention, it is guaranteed that you will be seen as a man. There’s no unknown with this. Without intervention, you will certainly keep becoming some kind of man. And you’ve had time to consider all the kinds of men you could end up becoming, and it doesn’t seem like you want to become any of them. And so your best chance is in the unknown.
I didn’t consider all types of man… they all just seem unreachable or like they condem me or somehow just hurt to think about… and in reality all I want is a hug and to cry… idk… I’m very confused
You deserve hugs and the chance to cry, this is all so much more than 99% of people ever have to face with making themselves exist. All of this that you’re doing right now is incredibly difficult, it’s ok to be confused and distressed. You are doing better than I did by staying engaged with this and not just hiding away and keeping things buried. Everything sucks right now but this hard work will have an eventual reward.
I don’t know the details about that journey, but I can imagine it has been harrowing. But you are getting close to something with the HRT acquisition, you’re getting somewhere different!!
This… describes me and my family situation very very well if I am being totally honest…
I’m sorry that you find yourself in that, because it is very painful. And it is not easy to get out of it and into the life that you want, the one where you can be all of yourself. But it’s possible. And you deserve the happiness it brings.
Thank you… I just don’t know if imgmi
That unknown aspect can be very scary, it’s so difficult to know what you’ll actually find from transitioning. But you’ve had plenty of time in this life where, without intervention, it is guaranteed that you will be seen as a man. There’s no unknown with this. Without intervention, you will certainly keep becoming some kind of man. And you’ve had time to consider all the kinds of men you could end up becoming, and it doesn’t seem like you want to become any of them. And so your best chance is in the unknown.
I didn’t consider all types of man… they all just seem unreachable or like they condem me or somehow just hurt to think about… and in reality all I want is a hug and to cry… idk… I’m very confused
You deserve hugs and the chance to cry, this is all so much more than 99% of people ever have to face with making themselves exist. All of this that you’re doing right now is incredibly difficult, it’s ok to be confused and distressed. You are doing better than I did by staying engaged with this and not just hiding away and keeping things buried. Everything sucks right now but this hard work will have an eventual reward.
Well yeah… the last 11 months were hell though
I don’t know the details about that journey, but I can imagine it has been harrowing. But you are getting close to something with the HRT acquisition, you’re getting somewhere different!!
Thank you