“When you fix your body and have the surgery, I want to be the first to try it”

Damn, He is better than most of the allies.

  • galileopunk
    7·
    1 month ago

    I think he fetishizes extremely vulnerable and mentally ill women, and sees trans women as particularly vulnerable. Ally win? Trans women are women.

    • VlevleeeOP
      4·
      1 month ago

      Oh no… He was not polite…

      "For you, it will be something profound, something that will bring you self-esteem and well-being, but for other people like me, it would be a fetish, a novelty, and a new experience.

      The desire to be the first to use something exotic, an object, as if you were a thing. It’s exciting to be the one who makes you feel like a woman for the first time, without the risk of getting pregnant. Practically a masturbator, because that’s what you feel is missing in yourself, being a useful object."

  • Lengthofdry1943
    4·
    1 month ago

    is your goal in this to be used as a fantasy and then left empty when the possibility you dont live up to them comes calling? or is this more of a hunger pang of touch starvation thing?

      • Lengthofdry1943
        2·
        1 month ago

        honestly real but future thinking is what saves the present self from more destruction you could muster. it hurt more from the hands of another person as it only reinforces the echo chamber within yourself, their slap resounding stronger and ricocheting off the already-present waves of hate. i think you would know this pain well, except its just your perogative not to see a person in the mirror because the self didnt offer future recompense. in other words, you might just hate yourself more, and i have no right to play anything but a warning.

        • VlevleeeOP
          1·
          1 month ago

          You’re right… I talked about this with my therapist this week. I put myself in bad situations because I hate myself, and I hate myself because I put myself in bad situations.

          I’ve been stuck in this cycle for so many years…

          • Lengthofdry1943
            2·
            1 month ago

            because it is comfortable in a fucked up way. you reach for things you know the result of, because you can be certain in its downfall. i only wanted to make you aware of this because from your history you have shared it is clear this was self destruction from the start, and i knew you were aware of it, but we often ignore the right thing for the reasons of a made up mind. it is hard to know, and i commend you for seeing that, but i also want you to know i wouldnt have said anything if i hadnt cared enough to. you may come out of this worse than where you started, and i have a feeling you are sharing these things to rationalize your decision coming forward. i do not want you to hurt more than you already have.

              • Lengthofdry1943
                3·
                1 month ago

                please look out for yourself. thats all i can ask. if you need to talk, or are just feeling down, you can message me.

    • VlevleeeOP
      4·
      1 month ago

      Open quote:

      "For you, it will be something profound, something that will bring you self-esteem and well-being, but for other people like me, it would be a fetish, a novelty, and a new experience.

      The desire to be the first to use something exotic, an object, as if you were a thing. It’s exciting to be the one who makes you feel like a woman for the first time, without the risk of getting pregnant. Practically a masturbator, because that’s what you feel is missing in yourself, being a useful object."