Thank you… I just… want to fix it… this has been traumatizing me for years… and I just don’t know how to fix it… sometimes I feel like maybe I don’t even want to… cause I don’t want to give myself a chance… don’t want to mourn… don’t want to get better because it’s easier to think I’m just bad.
You’re really too hard on yourself… You need to treat yourself a little better, by default girl… There’s no going to be any improvement if you’re the first to throw dirt on the grave.
Idk… I feel like I need to succeed… it can’t go on like that… and also that if I don’t idk fix my sexuality then I don’t deserve to transition or be a woman… then I’m just AGP faketrans or even if I am true trans… then my sexuality would ruin transition somehow and make me really ugly bad
I understand you, girl… Really… You deserved a hug now
Thank you… I just… want to fix it… this has been traumatizing me for years… and I just don’t know how to fix it… sometimes I feel like maybe I don’t even want to… cause I don’t want to give myself a chance… don’t want to mourn… don’t want to get better because it’s easier to think I’m just bad.
You’re really too hard on yourself… You need to treat yourself a little better, by default girl… There’s no going to be any improvement if you’re the first to throw dirt on the grave.
Yeah… I just hope it stops… but I feel so defeated and hurt… I don’t even want to try because I just failed so many times.
So now is not the time to try, but rather to strengthen yourself.
Idk… I feel like I need to succeed… it can’t go on like that… and also that if I don’t idk fix my sexuality then I don’t deserve to transition or be a woman… then I’m just AGP faketrans or even if I am true trans… then my sexuality would ruin transition somehow and make me really ugly bad