I’m gonna prove to you all that I’m a subhuman AGP faketrans pervert who doesn’t deserve to transition…
Honeslty I would love for you all to make me kill myself after me confessing all this so that I never get the chance to become a rapehon OpticsSuperNuke…
Here’s my confession…
- Porn addiction starting with 11y old…
- Female Masturbation, Lesbian porn etc…
- Desensitization and escalation occurred…
- Started feeling violated and forced to do it…
- At times was even bleeding and in bad pain…
- Tried stopping over and over again but failed…
- Started to hate my penis and wanted it gone…
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- Started being envious of women’s “pleasure”…
- Wished I was a hermaphrodite for sex once…
- Wanted to masturbate “like a woman”…
- Started imagining myself as a lesbian…
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- Learned the term AGP and shut it down…
- Escaped back into very bad hetero porn…
- Bigoted right wing phase full of hatred…
- Later after figuring out I’m bisexual…
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- Starting to kineq question my gender…
- Sexually crossdressed twice (I need to rope)
- Then my egg cracked and I very depressed
- Fell into kind of sexual madness for a week
- Tried masturbatint “like a woman”… felt bad
- Was in a lot of anguish and felt so ashamed
- Felt I was trying to fuck the pain away…
- Since then never did that stuff again
- Simply fell back into the usual routine .
So… wouldn’t you all agree… I am definelty AGP…
I deserve the most violent death imaginable.
This is like pretty normal trans and sexual awakening thing idk. Do you think cis women are pure angel creatures that shit rainbows or smth? 😭
My brother didn’t become a horny monster like me… my sister neither… as far as I am aware… their sexuality didn’t end up being fucking monstrous and they both don’t engage in this kinda stuff as far as I am aware because they are both moral and keep religious laws while I violate every boundary with myself and seem to spit on what is right and wrong and act like an unrestrained perverted sinner… I’m not chaste
What does it matter? Just live your own life, nobody gives a shit who you fuck or what your fetishes are, really. Life doesn’t matter, we are all gonna fucking die working and never retire, so maybe just do whatever the fuck you enjoy doing. If anything, I think religious folks who are scared of sex are limp dick losers
It matters because I don’t want to be this way… because it doesn’t bring any enjoyment or joy… just discomfort…
Sexuality has always felt so horrific…
And because I want to be clean again.
If this is normal trans awakening then most or all trans people are sick perverts and transphobes are right about how we are all disgusting…
A normal appropriate good trans woman would be somebody who always was already feminine and realized early as a child and was uncomfortable with sexuality and essentially androphilic as a child and then asexual as puberty started and then only regained sexuality after transition…
And cis women… well I imagine they are not malebrained sick fucks like me… they yeah of course are sexual creatures but not as vile as me. Why can’t people here just be honest with me and admit to the fact that I’m sick
fuck you
I’m sorry… what the fuck am I supposed to say… I’m sorry… this topic is just the worst thing for me… it’s been one of the reasons that I’ve been horribly mentally ill since I entered puberty… this stuff was just so traumatic to me… it’s not normal for a 15y old to want to cut off his penis because he feels like it’s forcing him to be a sexual monster… and also all this has made me feel so unworthy of love or forgiveness… I’ve just felt so sinful and disgusted with myself for years… this stuff genuinely has hurt me deeply… I know you’re angry but what do you expect of me… I can’t just idk… accept all this stuff…
And me growing up listening to transphobes like Matt fucking Walsh hasn’t helped me and fucked up my brain semi permanently… of course I’m gonna say bullshit but it just won’t stop… the constant assault of my mind against me just won’t stop…
I’m sorry for being like this.
This is a ridiculous standard btw, sexual kink is one of the only eats a “man” can explore his gender in a way that is acknowledged by society. It doesn’t make you faketrans for exploring your gender in the only way with a societally approved permission structure
But I didn’t “explore gender”… I was just a disgusting horny freak… and also… this sounds like you’re legitimizing sissies and lumping them in with trans women… after all is that person also “exploring” but I don’t want to be that person but the fact that I twice crossdressed and generally just experienced me being so perverted makes me feel so utterly disgusted with myself and unworthy of being anything