What’s it like in your mind? How do you think about things? I need to understand your perspective. I’m so curious and I need to peek over the fence.
What’s it like in your mind? How do you think about things? I need to understand your perspective. I’m so curious and I need to peek over the fence.
im depressed anyways, unable to appreciate what i have been given. i feel alienated from everyone else who lives normally though. i might be trauma free and theoretically NT but i was really isolated growing up homeschooled so i might not be a good sample. when i see people who’ve gone through any hardship at all i feel guilty and invalid. im not gonna describe this as if i deserve any sympathy. i think trooning and mental illness is all just a game to me and i could snap out of it if i chose to. it’s ridiculous i know but i cannot be convinced otherwise. it’s like i chose to live my life this way because everything else was just too boring.
I really don’t think you trooned because you wanted to crank the difficulty setting, but this is pretty real. you’ve been through tough stuff, too. Trauma is no joke.
i logically know life is mentally hard for everyone regardless of how objectively hard it is, so i do get what you’re saying. i relate to people with more trauma more than i relate to people with less. like anna said there’s just some absence of humanity. maybe even if the objective difficulties of our lives are drastically different we can relate on the subjective experience.
That’s pretty sweet. Thank you.
omg i literally get that last thought so often 😭 this is probably the most convincing faketrans argument for myself, mainly because i cant even remember what male puberty or realising im a tranny even was like, since i was 12 at the time. with the memory gone it kinda feels like i may have just done it because i wanted my life to be interesting, also reinforced by the fact that constant depersonalization often makes me feel like im just watching a tv show instead of actually living as somebody, so willing something that would make the spectacle more interesting into fruition would kinda make sense?