omg i literally get that last thought so often 😭 this is probably the most convincing faketrans argument for myself, mainly because i cant even remember what male puberty or realising im a tranny even was like, since i was 12 at the time. with the memory gone it kinda feels like i may have just done it because i wanted my life to be interesting, also reinforced by the fact that constant depersonalization often makes me feel like im just watching a tv show instead of actually living as somebody, so willing something that would make the spectacle more interesting into fruition would kinda make sense?