i was like this as a tiny kid, i am told, i wasnt raised in a environment that in nurrareged it, definitely not in boys. why am i lkke this???
u all already total me gendered souls r bs, none of u care about that when it comes to who should trooning out!
That’s an extraordinarily kind thing of you to say 🫶🏻
Some quiet yet passionate part of my soul just suppressed an excited and probably high-pitched, squeal at the mention of the way I write,
Not to be demure mind you, but because that part is currently,
in a library .👩🏻🏫
To answer your question actually though , like most things in my life it goes in cycles, but since I haven’t had a D&D game to run for a whilei have been reading more, though I also do a bi-monthly writers hour with my sister in law, and I do just generally try and always have either a book I’m reading (sometimes at a snails pace, mostly on the train to work, and lazy rainy mornings sitting on my bed by the open window) something I’m writing, or just generally miscellaneous active thugs I’m doing that are creative and engaging me in a way that is offline.
ty for replying! I’m ashamed to admit I haven’t read a book in a long time. Yeah I can chalk it up to depression and adhd, but the reality is I haven’t even tried. It’s a self-fulfilling prophecy. I have the belief about myself that I can’t read because of ADHD, and so I don’t read at all.
But anyways I’m going to try. I got The Bell Jar and started reading today. It took me like 2 hours to read 9 pages :/
So it’s not looking great. My vocabulary and reading comprehension has atrophied a lot, but I guess it’s never really been good to begin with since I always tried everything to avoid reading in school. And it doesn’t help that I’m so unfocused. I’ll just keep reading the same words over and over again and nothing is computing in my brain. And I have to search up every little thing that I don’t understand.
But hey, I tried! Nine pages is more than zero.
It can be very difficult to retain and maintain focus in this loud world, and I especially have empathy for how those difficulties have only extrapolated across the past 15 years (I’m estimating that to be our difference in age and when we traversed the tumultuous path of youth) because the reality is that the largest corporations that have ever existed in the history of our species, wielding the most advanced technologies that have ever existed in the history of our species (and which have come to fruition within only the most recent 20-30 years and so outpaced the relatively recently developed 200,000 year old Cortex that defines our sapience) have ONE goal that they bend all this preponderant power towards,
to seize hold of your attention and never let it go
I genuinely commend you and am proud to share our common ancestors with you for doing what you can to push back against that, to struggle for the psychological sustenance that we all so need to flourish as we should,
By means of hope I will leave you with one last stemwinder of wisdom; If there is anything that I’ve learned from playing piano for 10 years, it’s that when you start anything, it’s stressful and difficult and you generally suck at it and that can be discouraging, but to have faith in the resilience and brilliance of our brains ineffable design,
Practice with consistency, and you will prevail 🤘🏻
I have faith in you 🩷