Being fat so much of my life taints everything I could describe as dysphoria. Do I hate my legs and arms because I’m fat or because I hate having a muscular body.
I have very few memories in general so I don’t have much of anything from childhood to back up being trans. I was so sure of myself but now that my dad is dead I can’t separate my feelings anymore I feel like I am going to ruin my life. I already have a fake sexuality of being asexual everyone talks about sex and relationships being so big in their lives. It would probably be easier if I could just be normal and want to have a relationship I would know if I wanted to be male or female in that relationship.
sadly what you say is true, it would be pretty easy to detrans as a lateshit :( but hey, it means you’ve got nothing to lose.
and i can confirm the libido drop-off / genital dysfunction is real and is the one reason i would never go back on t. i would have been much more motivated to get on e if i had known what it did from the get-go.