Rough. Even if I get kicked out of my house, lose potential financial heritage, a good potential life and everything, lose my only 2 friends, get bullied, or even unable to go to uni, I’ll start HRT soon either way. Masculinizing further is simply more painful than anything else. But you’ll see mee in a year whining about that I should’ve never trooned out, and that I should’ve repped. But if I don’t do anything now, I won’t be able to rep at peace with myself.
Okay that’s fair. But I don’t see how god should take offense in you being yourself. He knew he made you to suffer from dysphoria, there’s nothing unexpected in you transitioning. He will reward you for being a good person. He’ll punish those who want to keep others miserable.
“He created you with chronic pain… He’d be okay with you ignoring everything He asks of you and you killing yourself”
That’s essentially what you just said.
Also no, dysphoria and queerness are my own sinful faults that resulted from my personal failures… I was created to a cis straight boy. Everything pointed to that. But I corrupted myself by sinning
No he created you to be this way. If not, then why doesn’t he help you? You have no guarantee he’ll ever reward you in your afterlife, how do you know he won’t abandon you? Focus on what you can do right now, and contribute positively to the world. That’s what he’d want you to do. I’m sure of it. Why should he care about you manifesting the traits he gifted you with. That’s so dumb
He doesn’t help becaus I turned away. It’s my fault. Everything is always my fault. Also these traits I wasn’t given. I was so different. So much more pure. Then I over and over made mistakes. I became like this. Became a monster. I was never very feminine. Never knew early on. I was always weak. That’s true. Insufficent. But not rejected from the category of men. Especially not as my body became that.
God doesn’t gift you with curses unless he wants you to cure them. I’m so rotten… all of my inside is rotten and twisted.
Then why do some children get uncurable cancer? Some curses can’t be cured and you were made that way. You should accept yourself the way you are, just like you said god wants you to. Accept being a troon,
I accepted that repping is not an option after a month of unreppable dysphoria. How do people even take repping as an option?
i’ve been repping for 3 years. I will never get out of this household, im too retarded for it
Rough. Even if I get kicked out of my house, lose potential financial heritage, a good potential life and everything, lose my only 2 friends, get bullied, or even unable to go to uni, I’ll start HRT soon either way. Masculinizing further is simply more painful than anything else. But you’ll see mee in a year whining about that I should’ve never trooned out, and that I should’ve repped. But if I don’t do anything now, I won’t be able to rep at peace with myself.
By believing that living in pain is okay because this life doesn’t matter and God will reward you.
Okay that’s fair. But I don’t see how god should take offense in you being yourself. He knew he made you to suffer from dysphoria, there’s nothing unexpected in you transitioning. He will reward you for being a good person. He’ll punish those who want to keep others miserable.
“He created you with chronic pain… He’d be okay with you ignoring everything He asks of you and you killing yourself”
That’s essentially what you just said.
Also no, dysphoria and queerness are my own sinful faults that resulted from my personal failures… I was created to a cis straight boy. Everything pointed to that. But I corrupted myself by sinning
No he created you to be this way. If not, then why doesn’t he help you? You have no guarantee he’ll ever reward you in your afterlife, how do you know he won’t abandon you? Focus on what you can do right now, and contribute positively to the world. That’s what he’d want you to do. I’m sure of it. Why should he care about you manifesting the traits he gifted you with. That’s so dumb
He doesn’t help becaus I turned away. It’s my fault. Everything is always my fault. Also these traits I wasn’t given. I was so different. So much more pure. Then I over and over made mistakes. I became like this. Became a monster. I was never very feminine. Never knew early on. I was always weak. That’s true. Insufficent. But not rejected from the category of men. Especially not as my body became that.
God doesn’t gift you with curses unless he wants you to cure them. I’m so rotten… all of my inside is rotten and twisted.
It just needs to end. But I can’t do it.
Then why do some children get uncurable cancer? Some curses can’t be cured and you were made that way. You should accept yourself the way you are, just like you said god wants you to. Accept being a troon,
Some people are meant to suffer and die and then be happy afterwards for enduring it.
If being a troon is so bad you can endure it too.