i don’t mean like, something transformative to your identity or sense of self. i mean, has anyone else experienced something where it feels like you’re a completely new person who did not exist before with no relation to whom you putatively used to be?
i was curious if anyone shared something like this since everyone here’s broken, but i didn’t feel i could ask when i was a known quantity.
nah, i feel a stable sense of and continuation of myself. im still the same exact person as ive always been, just with tits i hate, and chemically castrated
Holy shit people feel like that??
well, a stable sense of self from age 10 forward. got like 0 memories before then
Wild for me, I’m like blob without any direction or memories or whatever, I just know stuff about myself and that’s about all there’s to my identity
I think didn’t happen to me, if only I had long term memory
I just don’t feel like a person, I have no sense of self at all ig, it’s hard to tell
i think i somewhat understand what you mean. for me it’s pretty damn sure dpdr/depersonalization/derealisation that just suddently happens from one second to the other every couple days.
last time, 2 /3 weeks ago, it happened in my hallway while going to the kitchen to get water or something. suddently stopped walking and stood still to cope with the feeling of just having woken up from something that very second
btw, don’t do too much research on that stuff, if you think dpdr or similar things might be what you experience. it’s a bit of a cognitohazard, the more you think about it the worse it gets
i see. thank you for your input <3
would you say that you eventually return to your previous self, or does it feel like you changed forever? and did it only happen once or multiple times?
for me it turns to normal again after a couple hours or a day again
i’ve had stretches of time where i was depersonalized, stretches of time where i was disassociated. i can recognize these and they come and go. they were especially prevalent between when i became a different person and when i came out.
this was something that felt entirely different, at least in magnitude. nearly everything about me changed instantly. it was as if some higher dimensional demon reached down and rearranged my brain. i don’t really recognize myself as i was before it as myself, and i’ve never been even similar to that person. it only happened once, and i’m changed so far. i can’t tell you if i’ll change back for sure, but i’m fairly confident i won’t.
mmmh i’ve never had it like that
does it feel like you somehow just are a different person, or are there ‘quantifiable’ things that changed?
in those stretches of time my goals and opinions are shifted. the degree im working towards and am rly motivated about seems useless and i rearranged some decor and paintings cause i thought it looked bad lol. only to change it all back again when i was back to normal me. feels like im working against myself on some things
all of my interests vanished and i stopped talking to all of my friends. i used to watch a lot of anime and play a lot of video games before. after, nothing. i eventually got into linguistics and from there into indigenous language revitalization. and i picked up math. this happened during my last year of middle school. i stopped going to school for some period of time i don’t remember. i think it was two weeks ish to four weeks ish. all i did was cry in bed and cry at my computer. i didn’t really feel like i wasn’t myself in any way then immediately after, i was just too miserable to feel anything else. it was a little after where i realized that there was some type of discontinuity in my life story. this could be part of a disassociative episode, but it’s last many years and has had a plethora of small disassociative subepisodes. so idk.
thanks for painting a picture of what it feels like to you. i can honestly only empathise to it a little bit, it’s quite different and more sporadic for me, not a clear cut in my life
i mean it feels like im very much not the same person i was as a child or even as a teenager, not in a maturity way but in that i think and react very very differenrly
i don’t mean a gradual change. i’m asking if anyone has had a discrete break where one day they are someone, and one day, from that day forward, they are someone completely and totally different. a full 180 with no gradient period.
no I’m basically a soulless husk all my life I don’t have the capacity for that I think
