i don’t mean like, something transformative to your identity or sense of self. i mean, has anyone else experienced something where it feels like you’re a completely new person who did not exist before with no relation to whom you putatively used to be?
i was curious if anyone shared something like this since everyone here’s broken, but i didn’t feel i could ask when i was a known quantity.
all of my interests vanished and i stopped talking to all of my friends. i used to watch a lot of anime and play a lot of video games before. after, nothing. i eventually got into linguistics and from there into indigenous language revitalization. and i picked up math. this happened during my last year of middle school. i stopped going to school for some period of time i don’t remember. i think it was two weeks ish to four weeks ish. all i did was cry in bed and cry at my computer. i didn’t really feel like i wasn’t myself in any way then immediately after, i was just too miserable to feel anything else. it was a little after where i realized that there was some type of discontinuity in my life story. this could be part of a disassociative episode, but it’s last many years and has had a plethora of small disassociative subepisodes. so idk.
thanks for painting a picture of what it feels like to you. i can honestly only empathise to it a little bit, it’s quite different and more sporadic for me, not a clear cut in my life