i often hear people say starting HRT was incredibly exciting & gave them a reason to live. i cant really relate.

i was a normal, mildly depressed, functional adult. my life was a better- it felt better. everyday didnt hurt so much, life just felt vaguely meaningless outside of my one passion.

as it currently stands, my mental state has only gotten worse. this really doesnt seem normal for many trannies.

i may just still be grieving and accepting the fact ill have to be some misshapen abomination. im not sure.