I’m not white, black or asian… I’m just a weird in-between with weird semitic features and a skin tone that is dark enough to be hated but fair enough to not be seen as actually brown. I have body hair and ape genetics but then I don’t have big lips or any real advantages from my ethnicity. I look like a levantine arab with fair skin but enough color to be unusual to the nordic whites. The only thing my skin color is associated with is thugs and abusive men, it’s not an attractive olive like many pretty arab women, it’s not brown like that of North African men, it’s not white and not black…


Sometimes I comfort myself by looking at my cishon female relatives and cispoon male relatives. It’s not a lot, but I’m a big believer in “passing as a woman from this ethnicity is easy cuz all of them kind of look like men” and the inverse “passing as a male from this ethnicity is easy cuz all of them are big-eyed, chinless, narrow-shouldered, wide-hipped, and short”
Maybe it’s a cope, but copium taste so gooood
Yeah… idk… I just feel ugly