I am worthless scum and a bad person. I am filled to the fuckikg brim with hatred and rage and envious resentment. I am a man, a dirty ragful disgusting incel moid who doesn’t have a life. Everybody things I’m nice but I am actually an abuser. I abuse people. Cause I will curse at them and be angry with my family all the time. I have so much resentment towards my family and they don’t even fucking deserve me being a resentful piece of scum.

I am a bad fuckinc person and anybody here or my friends in my life treating me like I am a so nice and wholesome person and somebody who isn’t utterly worthless and despicable is pity and blindness to the fact of how horrible of a fucking person I am.

  • pleasantaftertastes
    3·
    23 days ago

    You are not perverted, or disgusting. And not every girl is pure or honorable. You aren’t delusional. You certainly can’t even soulless, because there isn’t actually such a thing. You’re just a woman with particularly low self-esteem. Which is the natural result of a world that treated you poorly. Please, give yourself a break.

    • DysphoriaGirlOP
      1·
      23 days ago

      Yes not every girl is honorable or pure but my father and mother already called me a whore for years despite me doing nothing but yk what, they were probably right because they knew that my soul is rotten. And good women are pure and if they aren’t then they are still at least female while I in contrast have this disgusting body and still most women at least aren’t so perverted and wrong as me. I am so unlovable because of being so wrong.

      Why am I so fucking gross. I am gross.

      I want my innocence back. I want to qualify for love again but ever since puberty started my body became this monster with it’s fucked up sexual urges and all these fucking masculine expectations becoming even stronger despite me failing in childhood already when it comes to that. And once I did succed in them, I was a violent bigoted hateful person but at least I was correct for my family, for God, for faith, for qualifying as human because thr enemy was subhuman. But one day just because of my best friend hugging me and me falling in love, I became the enemy.

      And now look at me. I am… if Auschwitz would have been filled with people like me, the world would rightfully cheer and hail it as the greatest achievement of humanity…

      That’s what I am… a blemish in existence that should be wiped away forever.

      • pleasantaftertastes
        2·
        23 days ago

        you don’t need to qualify to be loved. And your parents were wrong about you. You deserve to be allowed your human desires and loved.

        • DysphoriaGirlOP
          2·
          23 days ago

          Huh? No, that’s not true. Ever.

          Everybody needs to offer the other something. Needs to give a reason to be loved. Needs to provide value. You need to do, not just be

          Love is earned. That’s how it is.

          I can’t compute it any other way.

          • pleasantaftertastes
            2·
            23 days ago

            love is just given, sometimes. you shouldn’t need to earn something so simple and integral to human life. you’re more than your ability to create value or products. you’re a human being, and that’s enough.

            • DysphoriaGirlOP
              2·
              23 days ago

              I know but I don’t feel like I can really believe that. I just can’t understand it