it’s mostly my fault for not going to sleep earlier but yeah
the anti-theist parts of my brain have been acting up like crazy this past ramadan bc the sheer extent of islamic hypocrisy and forcing it everywhere is driving me kinda crazy
when it (ramadan) ends though it’ll hopefully die down and then i’ll prolly just go back to passively being annoyed at islam in my life and passively hating islam in the world
I understand that 100 percent, believe me it will get better if you manage to distance yourself from your regressive relatives/parts of society that are awful like that. I went from being actively burning with passionate hatred for islam and all that it has done to me and my family and society to passively hating it because I manage to distance myself from religious people, I am finally at peace basically. Even tho doing all that is harddd
the thing is i love those very same relatives and i know they love me too
i wish none of this had to be like this, i don’t know why everyone has to blindly believe and follow this evil shit
and i’m not someone who’s in a position where i can easily disconnect from all my relatives (even though i’d LOVE to live alone and finally have some semblance of independence)
I wish I could love my relatives and family who claim to love me but have been nothing but awful to because of religion and because I am a trooner so I have to hate them back and cut them off
When you come out if you can’t legally get HRT: DIY or die, be deceive and take no abuse from any family member, you have to be strong or atleast put a strong face against those want you to be oppressed and die a sad miserable repper after a short life
i’ve been doing some insane deception shenanigans to sneak diy HRT in since the beginning of 2025, and other than the time i was forced to go to india from june-aug ive been on it since (i even managed to sneak it in again, although i have no idea if ill be able to ever start prog bc of extra cost + frequency of purchase + size it takes to hide)
for all the other points, i have zero backbone. i used to have one when i was, like, 14/15 and i actively told my parents i never wanted to be married, but i got into so much shit and i slowly had it more or less conditioned out of me. i’m too mortified to confront them on anything serious now
i have no idea what’ll happen in the event i come out, all i can do is hope i won’t have to — that i’ll be independent before i come out, and so i can avoid confrontation/begging if need be
I am so sorry the most painful thing you can go thru in this life is definitely being depraved of HRT and seeing your body disform and be disfigured daily every day hurts. You can’t give up and you must do everything in your power to atleast get DIY HRT, coming out can be done when you are safer/financially independent. I am so sorry to hear that you are going thru all of this. Stay strong and DIY, there will be a way out if not you will go down having tried and with no regrets such is the life of a tranny. You must remember you have nothing to loose but everything to gain and go down fighting if you must. Lubbers hope everything goes well for you in life
or if HRT is ‘legal’ but hard to get via long waitlists or ‘screenings’ and mandatory psychologist visits and whatnot. Cissies can’t be trust to not kill us either directly or by keeping us waiting. TCD TCD TCD
here in the US (blue state) it’s pretty easy bc informed consent clinics, i just want to be as disconnected from it all as possible and it’s also a million times easier and cheaper to use diy rather than figure out how to deceive my parents into letting me use insurance freely
based on what you’re saying, do you live in the UK or EU by any chance?
it’s mostly my fault for not going to sleep earlier but yeah
the anti-theist parts of my brain have been acting up like crazy this past ramadan bc the sheer extent of islamic hypocrisy and forcing it everywhere is driving me kinda crazy
when it (ramadan) ends though it’ll hopefully die down and then i’ll prolly just go back to passively being annoyed at islam in my life and passively hating islam in the world
I understand that 100 percent, believe me it will get better if you manage to distance yourself from your regressive relatives/parts of society that are awful like that. I went from being actively burning with passionate hatred for islam and all that it has done to me and my family and society to passively hating it because I manage to distance myself from religious people, I am finally at peace basically. Even tho doing all that is harddd
the thing is i love those very same relatives and i know they love me too
i wish none of this had to be like this, i don’t know why everyone has to blindly believe and follow this evil shit
and i’m not someone who’s in a position where i can easily disconnect from all my relatives (even though i’d LOVE to live alone and finally have some semblance of independence)
but yeah i can see what you’re saying
I wish I could love my relatives and family who claim to love me but have been nothing but awful to because of religion and because I am a trooner so I have to hate them back and cut them off
this’ll probably be the same situation for me too when i come out
i’m just living in a temporary, transient delusion right now :(
im sorry about what you went through
When you come out if you can’t legally get HRT: DIY or die, be deceive and take no abuse from any family member, you have to be strong or atleast put a strong face against those want you to be oppressed and die a sad miserable repper after a short life
i’ve been doing some insane deception shenanigans to sneak diy HRT in since the beginning of 2025, and other than the time i was forced to go to india from june-aug ive been on it since (i even managed to sneak it in again, although i have no idea if ill be able to ever start prog bc of extra cost + frequency of purchase + size it takes to hide)
for all the other points, i have zero backbone. i used to have one when i was, like, 14/15 and i actively told my parents i never wanted to be married, but i got into so much shit and i slowly had it more or less conditioned out of me. i’m too mortified to confront them on anything serious now
i have no idea what’ll happen in the event i come out, all i can do is hope i won’t have to — that i’ll be independent before i come out, and so i can avoid confrontation/begging if need be
I am so sorry the most painful thing you can go thru in this life is definitely being depraved of HRT and seeing your body disform and be disfigured daily every day hurts. You can’t give up and you must do everything in your power to atleast get DIY HRT, coming out can be done when you are safer/financially independent. I am so sorry to hear that you are going thru all of this. Stay strong and DIY, there will be a way out if not you will go down having tried and with no regrets such is the life of a tranny. You must remember you have nothing to loose but everything to gain and go down fighting if you must. Lubbers hope everything goes well for you in life
i think you misunderstood, i am on HRT
i legit did my weekly injection like 20 min ago lmao
i was forced off for two months (it was hell) but i got back in in aug
it’s just prog i probably won’t be able to do easily for the aforementioned reasons
i worded it weirdly, my bad lol
or if HRT is ‘legal’ but hard to get via long waitlists or ‘screenings’ and mandatory psychologist visits and whatnot. Cissies can’t be trust to not kill us either directly or by keeping us waiting. TCD TCD TCD
here in the US (blue state) it’s pretty easy bc informed consent clinics, i just want to be as disconnected from it all as possible and it’s also a million times easier and cheaper to use diy rather than figure out how to deceive my parents into letting me use insurance freely
based on what you’re saying, do you live in the UK or EU by any chance?
Just do whatever is the easiest and gets you to your goal stay safe and be strong
No I live in a third world dumpster, glad to hear you are in a safer for troons state tho