legit, what the fuck has my brain been doing the last month…? i think it might just be totally and completely kaput. like, i really don’t think it’s supposed to be this way 😭

    • MagpieOP
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      4 days ago

      yea… i’m at the age where shit can suddenly start to go really badly, so it does worry me that, in just the last two years, i’ve gone from being dysthymic with occasional bouts of moderate depression to rapidly switching between acutely suicidal and euphoric every other week…

        • MagpieOP
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          4 days ago

          i’ve been hospitalized twice since last summer, so i’ve spoken to way too many shrinks at this point. they just keep blaming it on the estrogen 💔

            • MagpieOP
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              4 days ago

              yeau. honestly, it’s gotten so bad that i just start laughing whenever i think about it 😭 seriously, not too long ago, they even managed to give me a diagnosis of estrogen abuse… now i’m back in outpatient for the billionth time, and the psychologist seems to think my problem is just gender dysphoria…

    • Cambionic
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      4 days ago

      She goes from mania/hypomania to depression for the last like few months here.

      • MagpieOP
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        4 days ago

        it’s lowkey been this way for an entire year 😭

        • Cambionic
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          4 days ago

          Yeau. I just wasn’t sure when it started for you, so I just said the most moderate timeline.

          • MagpieOP
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            4 days ago

            yeau, it kinda started during my exams last year. God, i felt so fucking good… i kinda wish i could go back

    • nothing
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      4 days ago

      She’s been switching between mania and depression for as long as I’ve seen her here I think she’s just bipolar

        • nothing
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          4 days ago

          She’s also mentioned literally having had the diagnosis but getting it removed so yea

          • MagpieOP
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            4 days ago

            lol 😭 i guess it’s kinda ironic that i got the diagnosis removed after just one appointment where i told the psychologist that i’d been feeling great for the last month and would manage without psychiatric care… (i crashed hard and was hospitalized a couple of weeks later.)