One of the reasons why I repped for so long is because I kept getting told that being a trans woman is like “feeling like a woman” and I didn’t feel like that, I don’t feel like anything. I wish I could be a pretty sexless angel twink in the world without any gendered division but unfortunately we live in the world where sexes exist. I’m stuck as an insanely dysphoric human being who’d rather take on the shape and role of a female half of the population, but in reality both suck ass ngl

    • YanaSolyahhOP
      4·
      3 days ago

      possibly ngl but im not woke enough to call myself demigirl agender girl or anything im just a dumb woman ngl

      • t. choder
        1·
        3 days ago

        For years I kinda just did the whole “gender is what hormones you want” cope despite thinking very similar things and clearly being miserable with the two options this world has. It’s kinda tempting to go back to that framework sometimes to escape being an incomprehensible schizo to most-everyone, but idk, I can’t think of a more obvious cope in my case. But idk it’s possible you are just a dumb woman I guess, for your sake a part of me kinda hopes you are. It seems nice to have a side of humanity you can connect with, as opposed to, like, a sliver of a sliver.

        • YanaSolyahhOP
          2·
          3 days ago

          i don’t know honestly, like both options suck but im infintely better with being a woman than being a man. I tried to AAP agender cope in the past but eventually i broke down and couldn’t continue repping, i need E to function brvh

          • t. choder
            2·
            3 days ago

            Well yeah same on the E thing. I think I’m like legitimately neurologically intolerant of T or something, and if I stayed on T and experienced twinkdeath I’m not entirely convinced I’d survive it. But I’m personally past the point of that being enough for me to call myself a woman just given how wrong and half-true it feels, even tho the convenience of settling for a self-conception that is simple is tempting, no matter how untruthful it feels.

            • YanaSolyahhOP
              2·
              3 days ago

              realizing twinkdeath is awaiting me is what made me stop rep lmao