One of the reasons why I repped for so long is because I kept getting told that being a trans woman is like “feeling like a woman” and I didn’t feel like that, I don’t feel like anything. I wish I could be a pretty sexless angel twink in the world without any gendered division but unfortunately we live in the world where sexes exist. I’m stuck as an insanely dysphoric human being who’d rather take on the shape and role of a female half of the population, but in reality both suck ass ngl
Well yeah same on the E thing. I think I’m like legitimately neurologically intolerant of T or something, and if I stayed on T and experienced twinkdeath I’m not entirely convinced I’d survive it. But I’m personally past the point of that being enough for me to call myself a woman just given how wrong and half-true it feels, even tho the convenience of settling for a self-conception that is simple is tempting, no matter how untruthful it feels.
realizing twinkdeath is awaiting me is what made me stop rep lmao