• If I transition openly -> Abuse until Detransition
• If I transition secretly -> Abuse just later on
• If I leave my family -> Family suicide
• if I repress -> 50 years of suffering
• if I do conversion therapy -> suicide
• if I kill myself now -> Family suicide
• If I let them die -> suicide by guilt

This kind of situation cannot be solved…

The only option would be for my family to suddenly accept me being trans… which won’t ever happen.

And to all of you who say my family won’t kill themselves… they’ve already de facto did attempt to just waste away and die when I first ran away…

There is no solution… there is no hope…