- If I transition openly -> Abuse until Detransition
- If I transition secretly -> Abuse just later on
- If I leave my family -> Family suicide
- if I repress -> 50 years of suffering
- if I do conversion therapy -> suicide
- if I kill myself now -> Family suicide
- If I let them die -> suicide by guilt
This kind of situation cannot be solved…
The only option would be for my family to suddenly accept me being trans… which won’t ever happen.
And to all of you who say my family won’t kill themselves… they’ve already de facto did attempt to just waste away and die when I first ran away…
There is no solution… there is no hope…
They are not happy with that… because I do not actually suffer… I have numbed it all away… I will just waste aways slowly…
Again, if I die they also will die… there is no winning in this… they will die if I die too… If that weren’t the case I could kill myself but that sadly isn’t an option
So you already said that then wasting away is suicide for them but when you do it and they ignore it its ok? Idk I’d definitely run away
They don’t ignore me wasting away… they are actually very worried about me, especially the last few weeks… but the solution to me getting better is not an okay solution… I don’t tell them why I’m in pain… me wasting away makes them sad but me getting better by trooning is not an okay way to get better… not for them… and honestly maybe it won’t even get better… I just… can’t solve the riddle
You need to transition that’s the treatment
Okay and then… then i will be abused until I detransition or even forced to do it… heck, the first time my parent found out that I am bisexual, they wanted to put me on testosterone… they will abuse me… and if I try to protect myself by going away, they will kill themselves…