My mind says : dont do it! you wont have anybody left in your life, you cant trust anyone… they are your family, you grew up with them alonside them… you saw them for everyday in your life…
They would never accept the true you. It’s not your fault that it has to be that way. They could be different, they choose not to.
I have been living with them for 20 years, I have seen them EVERY DAY FOR 20 years. at this point, they are a part of me. and I am a part of them… It will be a pandemonium not only limited to my parents, but my entire extended family probably. my mom will probably get sent to the fucking hospital. since she hyper ventilates when I am gone for 1 hour outside and don’t call her back
It still is not your fault that they refuse to let you live in the only way that is healthy for you. It is not your fault, therefore you should not feel guilty.
Ill just let a note behind if I dissapear at 3 am. (they wont let me go lol). and hope for the best, I cant do more
Yeah, I respect it.
i would say do it, but i cant seem to myself
I cant do it myself either but instead of empathy, the both of us get scorn and apathy and accused of choosing to repress despite our families emotionally forcing our hand
WHY WHY WHY THE ACTUAL FUCK DOES NOBODY TAKE ME SERIOUS. INSTEAD OF JUST POSTING THIS FUCKING IMAGE, YOU COULD ACKNOWLEDGE THE FACT THAT I AM UNDER EMOTIONAL DURESS. BUT NO, INSTEAD I GET BLAMED FOR THE SITUATION I AM IN AND TOLD IT IS A CHOICE. WHY IS EVERYBODY SO FUCKING CRUEL. DO YOU SERIOUSLY FUCKING THINK THAT IF I WERENT UNDER SUCH EMOTIONAL COERCIVE PRESSURE, I WOULDNT HAVE ALREADY TRANSITIONED. FUCK THIS!
You’re ruining your own life for people who would hate you being your true self it is a choice don’t expect sympathy from people when you doom about it and do nothing to change your situation
IT IS MY FAMILY. I DONT CARE IF YOU ALL DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT FAMILY BUT I DO GIVE A FUCK ABOUT FAMILY. ALL OF YOU ARE SO INDIVIDUALISTIC. IT IS FUCKING INCREDBLE. “expect no sympathy” oh thank you very fucking much for blaming me for being abused… very fucking appropriate to just jump to victim blaming. GUESS THE FUCK WHAT? I CANT CHANGE MY SITUATION. How am I supposed to change it? Move out and cut contact… I TRIED BEFORE AND THEY PRESSURED ME BACK because they literally stopped eating and ended up in the hospital. SO THAT IS NOT AN OPTION. What the hell do you want me to do… HIDE IT? yeah that is currently the plan but wont work forever and then they will just abuse me at a later time… I am sorry if I am dooming… but I wish somebody could just help me… BUT YOU CANT. MY SITUATION IS UNFIXABLE
Then let them die if they can’t accept you what you’re doing is no different than killing yourself for someone who hates you why do you care so much about people who do everything to abuse you do you have stockholm syndrome or something
THEY ARE MY FAMILY AND THEY LOVE ME!!! YOU ARE FUCKING SICK IF YOU THINK I SHOULD LET THEM DIE. DO YOU NOT HAVE A SOUL. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU… They are just abusing me because they in their mind me being queer means I will suffer for eternity in hell… yes it is twisted and sick and fucked up but I cannot leave them and I sure as hell wont “let them die”… that is just fucking sick to even consider
im sorry. its really difficult to stay sane for me too. my family dont even actively pressure me like urs r doing
Thank you… I hope your situation gets better too
