I kinda don’t tbh. I have no clue when my voice changed for example

I realises im trans at 12 when my puberty began. I remember seeing my body malform and become masculine… in the mirror, under my own touch too…

i was heavily dissociated out of my body up until the point i vowed to stop repping and my brain also chose to selectively ignore the existence of sexual dimorphism. couldn’t really tell you when specific milestones happened other than a vague idea based off the little recorded evidence i have (voice recordings, photos, etc.)

i knew that puberty was A Thing and that it supposedly was going to happen to me but i didn’t know anything about it other than that i was terrified of it. i kept waiting for it to happen and then eventually just assumed that it must have already happened. now that my eyes are open to all of this, all i can really do is look back on the damage and cry.

Only my voice, I know that my voice broke at 11 y.o and I never become comfortable with it ever since. I dissociated heavily otherwise, I had thousand yards stare on a picture where I was 9 y.o.

Only thing that I really noticed in the moment was body and facial hair and also like the tumor doing stuff. Either I was too distracted by that stuff to notice the rest or I just didn’t really understand how bad it would get eventually to have noticed anything else while it was happening and it just kinda all hit me at some point later on after it was all done I think

Tho idk I don’t remember like anything that happened during puberty maybe those memories are just buried too far into the depths of my mind for me to remember

Honestly, no, but I scored pretty high on a dissociative disorder screening test posted on trendslop a while ago so I might not be normal.

Bits of it

everybody remembers this, its a source of trauma for a lot of us