She’d have rather tried to detroon to cheat on me with a straight woman on the other side of the planet than love me, someone who actually loved her, and I’m literally the state next door to her.
I dropped $2 grand ($1500 USD) on flights and a bougie king size hotel room in the center of the city CBD and bought almost every meal she fucking ate for her, I shouldered all her troubles and woes and put myself second for almost 2 fucking months, when I tried to talk to her about what was troubling me she scolded me for risking “setting her off” or completely changed the subject back to herself almost immediately.
I called the fucking ambulance to her house at 4 in the fucking morning when she posted the suicide note, I was doing everything I could to get a contract and transfer to her city with my current job.
And in return she tries to cheat on me with a straight woman on the other side of the globe, genuinely what the fuck.
I don’t think I was perfect by any stretch but I tried my best, idk, I think I need to do some self reflection before I think about “deserving better”.
And that’s good enough, more than enough probably, really.
Well, self reflection is good, chances are you weren’t perfect. I just want to be clear that you definitely deserve better than some who doesn’t value you and is cheating on you
No for sure, I think life comes in cycles, before this I had a gf I wasn’t good enough for, now I’ve had a gf who was, well, I suppose everyone knows well by now. I suppose I over-corrected by permitting too much trying to be a better partner, I hope I find a healthy middle-ground in my future.
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