I transitioned too late. Puberty ran its course and now im doomed. I don’t have the luxury of passing without extensive surgeries. The cost of transitioning just seems too high. Maybe for some of us it isn’t worth it.

I need to rep. I need to find a way to make dysphoria go away. I can’t keep living like this. I feel no happiness anymore. It’s just getting worse and worse. I’m hrtrepping which isn’t even that different from full repping. I can feel my identity and my soul getting more hollow every day. I’m not a real person. I don’t exist. I’m nothing. If I repped maybe I could find happiness in other areas. I’m sorry. It just feels like my life is over