People making the best out of their situation a lot of the time.

There’s something to be said about the idea that, as I see it, there’s nothing that much different with how people see you between being seen as an nb and being seen as a member of the binary sex you look closest, so enbycoping outside of kweer spaces is something I struggle to imagine anybody doing. I’m enby, and enbymoding just feels like moding as a histrionic member of either sex, it feels like I’m viewed as inherently attention-seeking and annoying, like it’s an instant way to make people think less of me and want to avoid me. I struggle to comprehend why anybody would wanna larp as me as it feels like social sabotage, like volunteering to be the tranny of trannies. But I suppose that could just be my own dysphoria talking. It’s very likely that I only say that because being told “you’re nb? But that doesn’t exist” actually does hurt as it’s deeply personal, and I imagine for those it’s less personal to, it feels better than straight-up being told they’re not their actual target-sex, and at least it enables people to not just gender them as their natal sex 100% of the time. I’m one-in-the same with enbycopers in that sense, I suppose.

I’m trying to work my way up to enbymode but it’s hard. I feel great in androgyny behind closed doors, but I feel like I’m assaulting people’s senses as soon as I go outside. I think succeeding in this would be based tho, in like an abstract way. Not caring about being seen as delusional and attention-seeking and weird and retarded is, like, objectively based. I can’t really argue with that.