I started developing a lot of gender dysphoria when I was like 12 or something. I hated the changes that were starting to happen to me, I feel like they destroyed my body and put me in a different social category from the girls I used to be friends with. I also hated the hen-pecking, fighting and ego obsession that came with being a guy. I also didn’t like and still don’t like some of the effects of testosterone, like the body hair and the rougher skin, having a defined jaw, being tall and having wide shoulders. I think now I’d be okay with my face and being tall if I was going to detroon.
Growing up with zero positive male role models probably didn’t help either, so I learned to associate maleness as something gross and bad. The guys in my life mostly just made me think “well I definitely don’t want to be that”, while a lot of the girls and women around me when I was growing up were genuinely really cool and I looked up to them a lot.
This is how I see it now, but for all the years I spent wishing I would wake up as a girl some day were all very real though.
I think when I finally transitioned I mostly did it because I hoped it would cure my dysphoria and make my brain calm down, and it did for a while until I was faced with having to actually try and live as a woman.
Well why did you transition in the 1st place? Did you not dislike being a man? It sounds like you just dislike positive androgyny
I started developing a lot of gender dysphoria when I was like 12 or something. I hated the changes that were starting to happen to me, I feel like they destroyed my body and put me in a different social category from the girls I used to be friends with. I also hated the hen-pecking, fighting and ego obsession that came with being a guy. I also didn’t like and still don’t like some of the effects of testosterone, like the body hair and the rougher skin, having a defined jaw, being tall and having wide shoulders. I think now I’d be okay with my face and being tall if I was going to detroon.
Growing up with zero positive male role models probably didn’t help either, so I learned to associate maleness as something gross and bad. The guys in my life mostly just made me think “well I definitely don’t want to be that”, while a lot of the girls and women around me when I was growing up were genuinely really cool and I looked up to them a lot.
This is how I see it now, but for all the years I spent wishing I would wake up as a girl some day were all very real though.
I think when I finally transitioned I mostly did it because I hoped it would cure my dysphoria and make my brain calm down, and it did for a while until I was faced with having to actually try and live as a woman.