She was asking a lot of questions and she saw the box of “rose oil” or sm shit. I told her it’s a skincare cream, and my pc has BSODed so I had an excuse to not talk about it more. She WILL be grilling me further, and idk what to do.
I am thinking I could go to a cosmetic shop nearby and buy something similar looking, but I will have to survive these 2 hours until she goes to work. I am 18 so it’s detransition or homelessness.
Fuck I will try. She also asked directly “Are these hormones, (full deadname)?”. I’m scared
shit. definitely get the skincare lie going. it probably hurts to do, but act incredulous and repulsed. genuinely disgusted by even the idea of being trans.
I’m too fruity and faggoty, and we had a lot of fights and arguments over my transness. She knows I’m 100% a tranny, and she hates it but she supported me going to a psychiatrist and waiting 3 years to get hondosed, and will definitely not accept DIY. She also knows I’ve been considering DIY.
She’s just the annoying kind of parent who controls every aspect of my life and wants to know everything.
Damn. Well, don’t get hondosed. Just lie through your teeth
Lie or die 🥰
What makes her say that, because parents don’t say that out of nowhere unless you directly told them you are trans or are giving off heavy signs?
Knowing what you told her or what you might be giving off as signs is useful for figuring out how exactly to dig yourself out of this hole. For example, if you came out to her as trans already, you can’t immediately just act disgusted about the idea of being trans because that lie would just be unbelievable (you can however pretend to be a sneedtranner who is against hormonal transition or sth. But this is also not that possible if you had openly told her that you wanted hormones).
Yeah she knows I’m a tranny and stupid me told her about DIY like 1.5 years ago
If you can’t move out for a few more years, you can try to believably-gradually seem to turn trad/conservative and end up renouncing being trans or whatever. However, if there’s a way for you to move out soon, probably it would work to just point-blank deny it each time she asks even if she doesn’t exactly believe you.
It’s good that she hasn’t seen the vial, hide it well and get a skincare bottle decoy yeah.
Hiding stuff has an increasingly higher chance of discovery over time, since you are basically rolling the dice on it each time and eventually you might get a bad roll. I wouldn’t freak out about it now, but considering all possible options of how to move out asap would likely be a top priority. Another way that would work is to find other trans people or trans-accepting friends who might be ok with you keeping your E at their place and taking your injections at their place.
I know some young adults are in v tricky dependent situations like living in the middle of nowhere, parents stopping them from getting a driver’s license, disabilities make them unable to study or work, etc. I don’t mean for what I say to be out of touch.
Yeah that’s nice advice. Thanks. I’m just gonna start seeing that psychiatrist and enter the waiting list so that it’s not sus.
I mean, the truth is gonna come out soon anyway, since my boobs are becoming noticeable. I only need to keep the lie going for a couple of months until I get enough savings to rent out and survive at least 2-3 months in an apartment. From then it’s gonna be a grind and idk if I’ll make it but whatever, fmstl